体贴

记得他曾经说过关心是出自于心里/内心，几时又能够再体会到？还有机会吗？嗯。。。。。。

Miley cyrus I miss you lyrics

她的他

还是忍不住找他了，谈了一下，虽然只是闲聊，纯属朋友间的话题，可是我的心很安定，就像。。。毫无目标的心归来了，心情自然而然的好了起来。平静许多。=）可能他还是最了解我的那个。他总能够知道我要表达什么，哈，原来四年不是谈假的，知我者莫若他也。安慰啊。。。

这样就够了，偶尔听到他的声音，蛮不错一下，只是他是她的了，不介意是假的。可是人是自私的，不是吗？明知不因该可是。。。当初她如何对我，我只是学她而已，况且我做的只是皮毛而已。我是很坏，可是又怎样？

庾澄慶 - 戒不掉

I like this song so much and hate this song too. It makes me feel so sad and pain, everytime when i feel unhappy,tired,mad or any bad emotion i must listen to this song. Thankx for "shiori" intro this song to me when i've break with my mr.T. Miss him lots, ya, i know i shuld not, but who cares?! Just usual with sharing everything of mine with him, till now still feel wants to but just can't. 2gather 4 years, break till now 3 years plus, what am i doing? Sigh~ Why i still think wants to rely on him? He have a warm arm,big shoulder..I miss it. He always help me to settle my things,give me any that he can give me,treat me like his babe gurl, cause of not appreciate and missunderstanding, everythings is gone. I lost the one who can let me to rely on. Be...i miss u, always feel wants to call u but i cant, maybe this is what call "bao ying", i dint treat u nicely that i can, im so sorry. Maybe u are right, i could not find the one who love me so deep just like u do, last time im not believe it but now i believe, you are really too nice to me till i duno to appreciate. Im so jealous the girl with u now! Just like what i always said: u r mine! lolx...now...past tense. Maybe many people will not understand, it had been so long ago why i still cant put it down, just because there are no one treat me just like u do! Im not a tough people, I like to cry and u will beside me and ask me to stop cz u will feel pain cz of my tears. How shuld i put it all down..my gosh!

Lucky mr.T no chance to read this, if not he must say sorry to me n what i only can get is sorry only,i will prefer choose not to listen. Im back to my original life before meeting mr.T. Maggi as my meal always, read novel, alone for anything, wont laugh like crazy, wont talk so much and more. Without him, my life is just so messy, i miss he scolding me cz of maggi, like he scold me too concentrate on novel n dun care him...i miss he accompany me shopp during my offday with calling him,kacau him,laugh with him...why today memories keep coming back to me? T.T Just because of this song?

我们说好的-Zhang LiangYing(张靓颖)

看了一次又一次，感觉还是一样。真的没什么是可以说好的，无论当初说的多么美好，到头来还是空头支票。不抱有希望就不会失望，这不是悲观，只是一切的一切都是已发生的事实证明。可能自己已经选择放弃相信，没什么值得相信。况且相信需要多大的勇气。或许是我没勇气了！那种痛，还是不要再经历比较好！

張雨生、張惠妹 - 最愛的人傷我最深 (KTV)

sakitnya~

Today is my another offday. Yesterday went for donate blood but meet a "smart" nurse make me quite worst.finger nails get hurt by my own,wrist pain again,back oso pain,wow...i got lot painful place. Just 22 years old but sound like 60 years old..lolx..

Last nite have a nice chat with my buddy-Nigel. Really have a nice chat, learn few lessons from him. Acconts have to be cleared, no credit term to be given. That right but is what i always cant do it but from now on i'll try to do. 2ndly, realistic n selfishness. Yeah, sometimes this 2 things is just use to protect myself. In this realistic world, we cant live without it if not we are always live behind peoples. I will going to be that, ofcourse, wont be over. Lolx..after the nice chat, feel much more better, atleast found someone that i can be communicate well.

As the same, my work and shop things always ruin my only off day. It shuld not continue always, I need to have my own off day, cant they think about it, please gv a lil bit fair to me. *sigh* but they never know.

However, good day to myself. =)

Off day without Him

Im back to last time, my previous single life time. This the 1st time my off day without him and i went for window shopp alone. My mind full of things, thinking while walking, wondering am i really can do what i have think just now. It doesn't matter is it im walking alone or not, but i still can't shopp with a relax mind. *sigh*

I want set of cloth frm MNG i plan to buy, pair of CarloRino heel shoes and bag, 2 cloths frm isetan,a bracelet frm ThomasSabo, a pearl necklace frm isetan, want to have a facial section, straighten n color my hair, repair my Titus watch, searching for new phone, plan to continue my C&G, thinking promotion for shop, money arrangement, bills, loans....everythings......what else?yeah...planning go to travel alone..lolx..could i?can i?shall i?may i?( Izzit very blur about what am i talk bout here?it just because even i shopping also cannot concentrate, ya..from the beginning i am enjoy n plan what to buy, but then it end up with all those trouble things!)FUNNY!

Off day just gone like that, but i still have alot things to do and prepare. When can i really enjoy my shopping period,off day or anythings....hw good if bills is not follow behind my butt..possible?