庾澄慶 - 戒不掉

I like this song so much and hate this song too. It makes me feel so sad and pain, everytime when i feel unhappy,tired,mad or any bad emotion i must listen to this song. Thankx for "shiori" intro this song to me when i've break with my mr.T. Miss him lots, ya, i know i shuld not, but who cares?! Just usual with sharing everything of mine with him, till now still feel wants to but just can't. 2gather 4 years, break till now 3 years plus, what am i doing? Sigh~ Why i still think wants to rely on him? He have a warm arm,big shoulder..I miss it. He always help me to settle my things,give me any that he can give me,treat me like his babe gurl, cause of not appreciate and missunderstanding, everythings is gone. I lost the one who can let me to rely on. Be...i miss u, always feel wants to call u but i cant, maybe this is what call "bao ying", i dint treat u nicely that i can, im so sorry. Maybe u are right, i could not find the one who love me so deep just like u do, last time im not believe it but now i believe, you are really too nice to me till i duno to appreciate. Im so jealous the girl with u now! Just like what i always said: u r mine! lolx...now...past tense. Maybe many people will not understand, it had been so long ago why i still cant put it down, just because there are no one treat me just like u do! Im not a tough people, I like to cry and u will beside me and ask me to stop cz u will feel pain cz of my tears. How shuld i put it all down..my gosh!

Lucky mr.T no chance to read this, if not he must say sorry to me n what i only can get is sorry only,i will prefer choose not to listen. Im back to my original life before meeting mr.T. Maggi as my meal always, read novel, alone for anything, wont laugh like crazy, wont talk so much and more. Without him, my life is just so messy, i miss he scolding me cz of maggi, like he scold me too concentrate on novel n dun care him...i miss he accompany me shopp during my offday with calling him,kacau him,laugh with him...why today memories keep coming back to me? T.T Just because of this song?